Quarantine quest ❤

Hi hearts , brains and brainless. Can I grab some ‘time ‘ from you ?

Here I’m to talk some mess about myself. I mean ‘to talk about myself ‘ but ‘mess’ is is a word I cannot replace for its significance because I’m a total mess . In what? In everything especially in keeping my room clean. I dn’t think if every teenager is good at that .I’m a perfectionist so that I have two options one is to make it perfect and the other is to give up the idea of doing it. I’m good at cleaning no matter if it happens once in a blue moon. Now I can see a dirty room smiling at me.Always I thought time was the thing that blocks me from doing the things but now we have time as most of us are in quarantine. So I stopped blaming time. Poor kid . A few quarantine days are passed and I dn’t even know what I have done productively. Probably eating, sleeping, thinking and obviously using social media. I’m not a mobile addict. I can easily live without it. But what’s the objective ?! moreover it helps. I do workouts not on a daily basis but on my preference basis. I’m not over sized but I’m over conscious. Conscious about the weight gain not in regulating. Next thing about me is that I’m a midnight snacker. But now I’m sad that my kitchen doesn’t have anything that overwhelms me. Basically I’m a type of girl who enjoys spending time inside the house. But this quarantine is crossing the boundaries of my tolerance. Moreover psychologically I’m always into something that is not allowed, existing or illegal. Overthinking is my hobby and productivity is my failure. Ideas often blooms in my mind but my failure in execution disappoints. I don’t think that I’m an intimidating person but I have a very few close ones. I have a not so bad following on Instagram mostly filled with people who have nothing to do with my existence. I’m a good observer. But now my target is myself. I observe the way I speak, the way I walk , everything. I want to improve myself. Nothing particularly but as a whole. I’m stupid at sudden response. I can make better decisions only by enormous thinking process. If a sudden answer is required I will probably choose the wrong one. Sometimes my mind goes blank. Is that a serious condition? For example consider me on an exam day well prepared and on the way to school. If I came across a friend and he/she asks me which exam I have today sometimes for a first few seconds I can’t reply. Honestly at such situations I feel like my mind is blank. The worst part is that I have even replied ‘I don’t remember ‘ in a humorous way . That’s me.I probably think you get a blurred outline of who I’m. If your answer is yes you are an idiot. Because surely I’m not a person who you can draw an outline just on the basis of something I have written about myself. . Way more to know. Gradually you will know me but not completely because I’m like natural number sequence which you fails to find a finishing line. If you asks me who is my most important person it will definitely be myself. I’m very happy and confident in who I’m. Physically who I’m in this world is something that blushes me. Sometimes I felt that my mind and my body are not made for each other. Because my mannerisms cannot match up with my mindset. Okay . More of me in next blog. Comment your feelings. Stay tuned. ❤

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